i cannot feel circles and circles i have pretended lost beneath voices of familiar faces crossing tears broken strings like a child release me stop asking these questions tonight he saw me let it go pictures of you magic kisses i have walked down these roads i always wanted to believe there were times i thought i knew it all hollow fears i'm not waiting for you take me back tell me stories i've tapped into a perosonality pretend to see me through my eyes notice me for one fucking time just tell me to stop another story if you told me what to say i want to wash away



12.22.96

i cannot feel
i cannot be touched
i cannot dream
for my dreams become real
i cannot tell
i cannot keep
my secret guilt forever will be
there is no escape
no home
no neutral place
everywhere i look i see his face
the walls know all
but they do not dare speak
i know not where i go
i am my defeat
iím scared of what wonít be
and cry
tear after tear
of what is breathing
inside and all around me