i cannot feel circles and circles i have pretended lost beneath voices of familiar faces crossing tears broken strings like a child release me stop asking these questions tonight he saw me let it go pictures of you magic kisses i have walked down these roads i always wanted to believe there were times i thought i knew it all hollow fears i'm not waiting for you take me back tell me stories i've tapped into a perosonality pretend to see me through my eyes notice me for one fucking time just tell me to stop another story if you told me what to say i want to wash away



11.4.97

magic kisses passed through his lips
while tender fingers slipped through my hair
a sweetness that had long been forgotten
was embraced by memories still not taken
and there i let it go
and felt the fire breathe from far down below
so as his grip fastened against my leg
his eyes tightened returning my gaze
the most wonderous feeling of it all
was knowing he was holding me from my fall
the night then turned to day
where the moon melt by each ray
everything the same was everything different
patterns retraced in circles never drawn
burning paths in places that were not shown
and so begins the cycle of the light
where the secret of my lust
is buried deep in guilty dust
it is a pool of loneliness
that drips an unseen sadness
through it shadows i have made
to hide away the shameful day
it is a fairy tale to ease the pain
hoping to lessen every other name
but the thoughts sink deeper below my skin
where i am no longer in a position to win
so fuck me now while you still can
fuck me now before i understand