i cannot feel circles and circles i have pretended lost beneath voices of familiar faces crossing tears broken strings like a child release me stop asking these questions tonight he saw me let it go pictures of you magic kisses i have walked down these roads i always wanted to believe there were times i thought i knew it all hollow fears i'm not waiting for you take me back tell me stories i've tapped into a perosonality pretend to see me through my eyes notice me for one fucking time just tell me to stop another story if you told me what to say i want to wash away



11.5.97

i have walked down these roads many times before
i have stripped my body naked hoping for you to explore
i have waited for a change knowing none lay ahead
i have fought with myself arguments
and then felt feelings i always wished you had
i have held a mirror wanting your reflection staring back into me
i have seen you for who i wanted to see
and i have failed to change my me inside of you
when will the peace come to me
when will the drum stop beating the pain and let me feel free
back and forth
a luxury i wished were not my own
stand still movements
trapping every fault iíve known
i have done all of this and more
i have lost the battle without the war
so why does it bother me so
why do i care when you say hello
perhaps there is an answer i donít want to admit
perhaps iím afraid of falling deeper than this