i cannot feel circles and circles i have pretended lost beneath voices of familiar faces crossing tears broken strings like a child release me stop asking these questions tonight he saw me let it go pictures of you magic kisses i have walked down these roads i always wanted to believe there were times i thought i knew it all hollow fears i'm not waiting for you take me back tell me stories i've tapped into a perosonality pretend to see me through my eyes notice me for one fucking time just tell me to stop another story if you told me what to say i want to wash away



12.12.97

notice me for one fucking time
feel me through my mind
just let go of your selfish ways
of your confused past broken days
look at me
touch me
hold me
please
canít you feel it
the distance that is nearest
i donít want to feel less than alone
smaller than iíve grown
but you do this cuz you care?
to only let me in when no one else is there
you lay down next to me miles apart
while i become the furthest from your heart
well it doesnít work for me anymore
pretending that youíll pull me through your door
i want more from you than that
more than the pain felt from a silent slap
and so i take a stand
putting both feet down as i can
iím ready to walk
to leave you without talk
but the moment that i raise
you speak words and make me stay
and there i start again
lying because i cannot win
addicted helpless to my lonely sin