i cannot feel circles and circles i have pretended lost beneath voices of familiar faces crossing tears broken strings like a child release me stop asking these questions tonight he saw me let it go pictures of you magic kisses i have walked down these roads i always wanted to believe there were times i thought i knew it all hollow fears i'm not waiting for you take me back tell me stories i've tapped into a perosonality pretend to see me through my eyes notice me for one fucking time just tell me to stop another story if you told me what to say i want to wash away



12.29.97

i want to wash away
every fingerprint ever made to stay
i want to remove his breath from my grip
kissed on by borrowed lips
i wanted so much
to feel his touch
to believe his smile
to awaken his child
i wanted him
because of games i could not win
i wanted him
not out but in
because even nothing
felt like something
starving stares and lonely glares
broken dreams and fraying seams
and it is in this that now i know
i was nothing more to him than show