i cannot feel circles and circles i have pretended lost beneath voices of familiar faces crossing tears broken strings like a child release me stop asking these questions tonight he saw me let it go pictures of you magic kisses i have walked down these roads i always wanted to believe there were times i thought i knew it all hollow fears i'm not waiting for you take me back tell me stories i've tapped into a perosonality pretend to see me through my eyes notice me for one fucking time just tell me to stop another story if you told me what to say i want to wash away


i have pretended
to see what is not mine
to feel you through my eyes
i have risen
to heights only i could climb
i have fallen
to depths only i could drown
i have pretended
to fight the lies
to protect my own deceit
i have many times lost
and felt betrayed by what i did not possess
this is me
this is not what i can be
you locked me in your room
you opened me behind closed doors
beside you i laid naked
before you i stood weak
i thought i could make it real
fill the missing holes
but i was wrong
he was always distantly right
and i fought kicking and screaming
now i am starting to see
what my heart would not let me feel
i robbed myself
and filled me with looks i wanted to believe
with words not meant for me
tomorrow will come again
the pain will surface through
but i will see
only what you wanted me to